دانلود کتاب I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki 2022

I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a deeply personal memoir by South Korean writer Baek Sehee. The book documents her experiences with depression, anxiety, self-doubt, loneliness, and difficult patterns in her relationships.

The book is largely structured around conversations between Baek and her psychiatrist over a period of twelve weeks. Through these therapy sessions and her personal reflections, she examines the negative thought patterns and behaviors that repeatedly affect her sense of self-worth and relationships.

Rather than presenting mental health as something with a simple solution, Baek explores the slow and complicated process of understanding herself and learning to deal with painful emotions.

The title captures the central contradiction of the memoir: even when she feels overwhelmed by despair and sometimes wishes she could disappear, she can still experience small moments of pleasure—such as eating her favorite tteokbokki. That contrast becomes a metaphor for the complicated reasons people can have for continuing to live.

Ultimately, the book is about mental health, self-awareness, therapy, vulnerability, and finding small sources of comfort and meaning in everyday life. It combines memoir with elements of self-help and psychological reflection¹.